Shannon and I are going to Tuscon, AZ for spring break. We were booking flights tonight and she found one for 130 dollars-terrific, right?
So she booked one for herself and then, amazingly, the only ones available after that were 200 dollars! As you can imagine, I was not thrilled, and laughed until she said that I could fly out the next morning for the same price.....then I laughed harder.
So in the name of saving money, I am taking Shannon to the airport, driving back, and driving myself to the airport the next morning.
But in light of that 'boo-hoo' I feel I need to counter it with some happy-ness.
(As in 'you put the happy in my ness, you put the good times into my fun')
-As of right now, you can hardly see the grass outside because the weathermen were actually right-it's snowing!
-I not only got to hang out with Anna tonight
Anna = the most empathetic person that I know (revert to last blog for understanding)
But I also got to play Super Mario world with her-and she pretty much knows everything about the game which made me feel like I was playing with my brother
-We are going to watch spring training games in AZ-Cubs and Diamondbacks are the ones that we already have tickets for.
Needless to say, I am ready to be wearing a baseball hat, cheering for my best friend's favorite baseball team, and being in a state that actually knows what guacamole is.
Baseball, Ray, Baseball!
Love,
Emily
January 21, 2007
January 20, 2007
wrong thinking
The theme for last semester was wrong thinking.
In Philosophy I learned that Socrates' biggest plight was people thinking that they have knowledge when they really don't. We actually explored the question 'what does it mean to know something' and we learned that a couple of philosophers had a lot of definitions for what it doesn't mean to know something.
In British Literature, specifically in the section that had to do with Medieval thought about religion, we read "The Tragical History of Dr. Faustus" --This guy (Dr. Faustus) had all of the knowledge in the world but still decided to puruse magic and conjuring up the devil because he wasn't thinking correctly.
I just watched 'Saved'-anyone that has seen that movie can attest to the fact that people with wrong thinking do damage.
This led me to think about what I discussed all last semester: is the wrong mindset the worst thing in the world?
For me, yes.
I have been plagued by wrong thinking.
Example time: Tonight I couldn't get something out of my head and I allowed it to ruin my entire evening. (Before you're worried, it was something insignificant and small.) Sure, I had fun, but my mind couldn't get out of the state that it was in. I'm sure this affected how I treated people-even if it wasn't noticeable, I still could tell the difference in myself.
Wrong thinking = wrong thoughts about self normally. And for me, wrong emotions that can get out of control fast.
And do you know what I want through all of this time of feeling bad for myself? I just want someone to love me. I don't even want to rectify the situation in my mind, I just want someone to generally love me for me.
BOO HOO EMILY-This is what should be going through your head right now.
Before this gets too emotional, I really want to get to the point that-even though it really stinks to admit it-that when I am like this I miss the actions that could really be described as love because I'm too caught up in self pity/not letting go/not being vulnerable.
And then I get on this avenue toward needing to be fulfilled and that's never a good place to be in.
The left turn directly before that 'avenue' is to debunk the specific wrong thinking that is in my head right now. So I'm off to go do that in the best way that I know how: journaling.
Words from my youth: when God brings up an issue, it usually means that He wants you to deal with it.
Deal = going to Him with the issue, talking to Him about why it's bothering you, waiting for His help to debunk the situation-through people, His word, one time I think my bad thinking was debunked by a tv show once.
Anyway, I'll let you know when this specific onset of bad thinking is debunked/how the debunking came about.
Love,
Emily
In Philosophy I learned that Socrates' biggest plight was people thinking that they have knowledge when they really don't. We actually explored the question 'what does it mean to know something' and we learned that a couple of philosophers had a lot of definitions for what it doesn't mean to know something.
In British Literature, specifically in the section that had to do with Medieval thought about religion, we read "The Tragical History of Dr. Faustus" --This guy (Dr. Faustus) had all of the knowledge in the world but still decided to puruse magic and conjuring up the devil because he wasn't thinking correctly.
I just watched 'Saved'-anyone that has seen that movie can attest to the fact that people with wrong thinking do damage.
This led me to think about what I discussed all last semester: is the wrong mindset the worst thing in the world?
For me, yes.
I have been plagued by wrong thinking.
Example time: Tonight I couldn't get something out of my head and I allowed it to ruin my entire evening. (Before you're worried, it was something insignificant and small.) Sure, I had fun, but my mind couldn't get out of the state that it was in. I'm sure this affected how I treated people-even if it wasn't noticeable, I still could tell the difference in myself.
Wrong thinking = wrong thoughts about self normally. And for me, wrong emotions that can get out of control fast.
And do you know what I want through all of this time of feeling bad for myself? I just want someone to love me. I don't even want to rectify the situation in my mind, I just want someone to generally love me for me.
BOO HOO EMILY-This is what should be going through your head right now.
Before this gets too emotional, I really want to get to the point that-even though it really stinks to admit it-that when I am like this I miss the actions that could really be described as love because I'm too caught up in self pity/not letting go/not being vulnerable.
And then I get on this avenue toward needing to be fulfilled and that's never a good place to be in.
The left turn directly before that 'avenue' is to debunk the specific wrong thinking that is in my head right now. So I'm off to go do that in the best way that I know how: journaling.
Words from my youth: when God brings up an issue, it usually means that He wants you to deal with it.
Deal = going to Him with the issue, talking to Him about why it's bothering you, waiting for His help to debunk the situation-through people, His word, one time I think my bad thinking was debunked by a tv show once.
Anyway, I'll let you know when this specific onset of bad thinking is debunked/how the debunking came about.
Love,
Emily
January 15, 2007
don't close your eyes
balance-to bring in to or keep in equal or satisfying proportion or harmony
I'm pretty sure that balance is one of the hardest things in life.
I'm not talking about balancing school work with my social life-I think for the college level I've got that down.
But balancing other things....abstract things
I'll try my best to explain.
I'm finding that everything in my life has to do with submission. In this book that I read "How to Get a Date Worth Keeping" (before you laugh-it was good to read after all of the I Kissed Dating Goodbye Types in the world) something stuck out to me: "When asked about their relationships, women talk a lot about desiring to respond, desiring to be pursued, wanted, initiated with, and so forth. It helps them feel aggressive. A man's strength allows her to be all she is created to be." (Cloud 147)
Aggression = initiating things in the realtionship
Before you think this has to do with relationships, let me stop and say that it isn't. My whole life I've been the strong personality-the extrovert, the leader, the initiator, the pursue-er-and I've always struggled with the concept of God's will because I've felt (because of my personality) that I am too take charge-and I'm afraid that I will miss what God has for me because I'm off doing or wanting to do other things. This has led to an extreme amount of inaction over the past couple of years of my life (a.k.a I sit around forever and try to discern what God wants me to do down to the littlest detail). While this is a good exercise in waiting on God, I have come to the conclusion that this is not how He created us to be, and that my extreme leader personality isn't such a bad thing after all.
My whole college career I have focused on English because it is something that I've loved and also is something that I am good at. I never felt like I was lead by the voice of God to do English-it just seemed natural. And I've always doubted it because I never heard directly from God. Then, in the middle of this Feature and Magazine Writing class-I felt like God was showing me the specific knacks that he created me with. I remembered when I was a little girl and would write stories down on lined paper-the kind with the dashes in the middle so you could make your letters correctly-and I would staple them together to make books. I was also extremely story board and plot oriented-I loved making up stories in my head (my family has some pretty funny stories about my old tendencies with that). When I was older I loved to take different mediums and put them collage like on a flat surface to create art. All of a sudden I had it-God was showing me that He wanted me to pursue Magazine layout after school. And I felt like it was the most natural thing ever.
Now here I am, ready to work on the Papyrus (school newspaper) next semester, sending out my resume to people I can do layout for, and stimulating my artistic side by cutting and pasting everything that I can find and sort of calling it art. I am passionately pursuing this direction that God has opened my eyes to-even though it was totally there the whole time. He's given me the vision, now I'm after it.
This brings a whole new meaning to "Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart." -37:4 The desires of my heart were already there. I've always struggled with this verse as well.
So what does this all have to do with submission? I'm learning that submitting to God does not mean inacation in the rest of my life-I've been pursuing an English major for the past two and a half years while trying to hear what God wants for me after school-whether it be going to the mission field or going to grad school or getting an English type job-and to be honest, those could all be possibilities still, but I have an umbrella to work under now: magazine layout and loving people. I'm submitting that to God and waiting for the next step.
His nature to show me what is good and of Him gives me the peace to passionately and aggresively pursue all that He has for me in life.
Anyone who knows me, knows that I am a 'go at it one hundred percent' person-If I get something in my mind that I think is what God wants me to do-I go for it without looking back.
Another important thing to add is that if whatever I am doing is not good/the right thing, I trust that God will turn me back around-and teach me something in the process.
I need to have more grace when people make bad decisions-because I make them all the time-which means I need grace for myself as well.
God is good.
A few lyrics from one of Switchfoot's songs....I was listening to it the other day in the car, and I'm pretty sure that God has connectedness because I get pounded with a particular message at different points in my life:
Don't close your eyes
This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose?
*****************************************************
Trust in God's promises and let them promote you to action-love people, pursue what God has for you/who He's created you to be, be true to your personality.
Love,
Emily
I'm pretty sure that balance is one of the hardest things in life.
I'm not talking about balancing school work with my social life-I think for the college level I've got that down.
But balancing other things....abstract things
I'll try my best to explain.
I'm finding that everything in my life has to do with submission. In this book that I read "How to Get a Date Worth Keeping" (before you laugh-it was good to read after all of the I Kissed Dating Goodbye Types in the world) something stuck out to me: "When asked about their relationships, women talk a lot about desiring to respond, desiring to be pursued, wanted, initiated with, and so forth. It helps them feel aggressive. A man's strength allows her to be all she is created to be." (Cloud 147)
Aggression = initiating things in the realtionship
Before you think this has to do with relationships, let me stop and say that it isn't. My whole life I've been the strong personality-the extrovert, the leader, the initiator, the pursue-er-and I've always struggled with the concept of God's will because I've felt (because of my personality) that I am too take charge-and I'm afraid that I will miss what God has for me because I'm off doing or wanting to do other things. This has led to an extreme amount of inaction over the past couple of years of my life (a.k.a I sit around forever and try to discern what God wants me to do down to the littlest detail). While this is a good exercise in waiting on God, I have come to the conclusion that this is not how He created us to be, and that my extreme leader personality isn't such a bad thing after all.
My whole college career I have focused on English because it is something that I've loved and also is something that I am good at. I never felt like I was lead by the voice of God to do English-it just seemed natural. And I've always doubted it because I never heard directly from God. Then, in the middle of this Feature and Magazine Writing class-I felt like God was showing me the specific knacks that he created me with. I remembered when I was a little girl and would write stories down on lined paper-the kind with the dashes in the middle so you could make your letters correctly-and I would staple them together to make books. I was also extremely story board and plot oriented-I loved making up stories in my head (my family has some pretty funny stories about my old tendencies with that). When I was older I loved to take different mediums and put them collage like on a flat surface to create art. All of a sudden I had it-God was showing me that He wanted me to pursue Magazine layout after school. And I felt like it was the most natural thing ever.
Now here I am, ready to work on the Papyrus (school newspaper) next semester, sending out my resume to people I can do layout for, and stimulating my artistic side by cutting and pasting everything that I can find and sort of calling it art. I am passionately pursuing this direction that God has opened my eyes to-even though it was totally there the whole time. He's given me the vision, now I'm after it.
This brings a whole new meaning to "Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart." -37:4 The desires of my heart were already there. I've always struggled with this verse as well.
So what does this all have to do with submission? I'm learning that submitting to God does not mean inacation in the rest of my life-I've been pursuing an English major for the past two and a half years while trying to hear what God wants for me after school-whether it be going to the mission field or going to grad school or getting an English type job-and to be honest, those could all be possibilities still, but I have an umbrella to work under now: magazine layout and loving people. I'm submitting that to God and waiting for the next step.
His nature to show me what is good and of Him gives me the peace to passionately and aggresively pursue all that He has for me in life.
Anyone who knows me, knows that I am a 'go at it one hundred percent' person-If I get something in my mind that I think is what God wants me to do-I go for it without looking back.
Another important thing to add is that if whatever I am doing is not good/the right thing, I trust that God will turn me back around-and teach me something in the process.
I need to have more grace when people make bad decisions-because I make them all the time-which means I need grace for myself as well.
God is good.
A few lyrics from one of Switchfoot's songs....I was listening to it the other day in the car, and I'm pretty sure that God has connectedness because I get pounded with a particular message at different points in my life:
Don't close your eyes
This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose?
*****************************************************
Trust in God's promises and let them promote you to action-love people, pursue what God has for you/who He's created you to be, be true to your personality.
Love,
Emily
January 12, 2007
interrobang
Hello Friends-
I've decided to start a blog-mostly because I like to write and I like to tell stories.
And my friend Christie reads Ken Jennings blog everyday (the guy who was on Jeopardy for a ridiculous amount of time) and she gets a kick out of it.
Which leads me to another big point of this blog: entertaining YOU-it might be something funny, it might be devotional style (what can i say-i'm a big 'share from the heart' type person), or it might just be something interesting (for those of you from G-ville, I have input.)
Like this for example:
in·ter·ro·bang
–noun
a printed punctuation mark , available only in some typefaces, designed to combine the question mark (?) and the exclamation point (!), indicating a mixture of query and interjection, as after a rhetorical question.
How many times do you use the interrobang?!
Okay, so it's actually a combined punctuation mark that sorta looks like the letter P with a dot at the bottom BUT I like to use it as stated above.
(That's from Ken Jennings blog by the way. What can I say, I can only aspire to be like him.)
So I hope you enjoy reading my blog. (I'm bad at ending things, I guess this will be a learning experience.)
Oh and I will not use this to post my extremely emotional feelings (only a priveleged few get that experience), I will not post extremely long surveys about myself that will be composed of yes and no questions, and I probably won't write every single day.
I will love every comment that you leave in response to the stuff I post, I will post stuff that I have written/am writing (fiction) on here for honest opinion, and I will try to remember 2007 (i was bad at remembering 2006) with this blog.
Thanks for reading!
-Emily
I've decided to start a blog-mostly because I like to write and I like to tell stories.
And my friend Christie reads Ken Jennings blog everyday (the guy who was on Jeopardy for a ridiculous amount of time) and she gets a kick out of it.
Which leads me to another big point of this blog: entertaining YOU-it might be something funny, it might be devotional style (what can i say-i'm a big 'share from the heart' type person), or it might just be something interesting (for those of you from G-ville, I have input.)
Like this for example:
in·ter·ro·bang
–noun
a printed punctuation mark , available only in some typefaces, designed to combine the question mark (?) and the exclamation point (!), indicating a mixture of query and interjection, as after a rhetorical question.
How many times do you use the interrobang?!
Okay, so it's actually a combined punctuation mark that sorta looks like the letter P with a dot at the bottom BUT I like to use it as stated above.
(That's from Ken Jennings blog by the way. What can I say, I can only aspire to be like him.)
So I hope you enjoy reading my blog. (I'm bad at ending things, I guess this will be a learning experience.)
Oh and I will not use this to post my extremely emotional feelings (only a priveleged few get that experience), I will not post extremely long surveys about myself that will be composed of yes and no questions, and I probably won't write every single day.
I will love every comment that you leave in response to the stuff I post, I will post stuff that I have written/am writing (fiction) on here for honest opinion, and I will try to remember 2007 (i was bad at remembering 2006) with this blog.
Thanks for reading!
-Emily
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